I wrote the below post about three weeks ago, but I wasn’t ready to share it. I didn’t have a real binge recently. Just some run of the mill overeating, especially when I was stuck home because of all the snow we’ve been getting. There were definitely times in my life that I would buy bags of chips, cookies, etc and eat it all in one sitting. Ever get takeout just for yourself and they give you 3 forks? That’s how you know you ordered too much, but I would still eat almost all of it. Like I said below, it has been years since I have done this. If I overeat just a little now, I don’t feel well. It’s just not worth it to bury my feelings with food. I’ve learned to address them head on – even when extremely uncomfortable to do so.
I’ve never really talked about my struggles with binge eating. No one close to me , my family and friends, know that this is something that is a challenge for me. It started in my early teens and I didn’t really get it under control until my late twenties. It’s surprising that I was never over 200 lbs. That was the ceiling that I had decided was my absolute limit. I mean, I wasn’t really that fat if I was still in the 100s, right? Why I am mentioning this now? Well, it’s been a long time since I’ve had a true binge but I have been so hungry lately. I’m doing some self exploration of why I’m hungry. I know it isn’t a physical hunger and I need to understand what emotionally is pushing me to eat so much. My goal is to get it under control this week. I want to get back on track with my weight loss. I’ve hit a low of 155 and am focusing on lower my body fat %. I’ve started lifting heavy weights, moving away from the machines. I will reach my goals by putting the best quality and right quantities of food/fuel in my body.